Confessions of a Black Mother

    In lieu of having two adult children, I've had time to go back and reconsider how I raised
    them. If I could do it over again, I would have been more emotionally available. My
    reason for not doing so was my previous belief that it would weaken them if they had
    gotten used to being treated a certain way and I knew this society would not treat them
    the same way. I wanted them to have tough skin so that they could survive.
    Unfortunately, in this society, black people are not looked at with empathy and
    compassion. There is more public outrage when animals are being abused than when a
    black child playing in a playground is shot by a cop or is killed for walking to a store for
    candy in his own neighborhood.
    My main goals were to make sure they were financially literate, had critical thinking
    skills, had a strong work ethic, had social skills, knew how to cook, clean and maintain
    their own living space. I also raised them thinking that if anything happened to me, I
    wanted the peace of mind that they could survive without me. Tomorrow is not
    promised to anybody. I thought it was selfish of me to let my kids depend on me for
    things they could and should be doing for themselves.
    When I was in middle school, my parents would give me all of my lunch money on
    Monday and I would have to budget it to make sure I would eat all week. If I spent it
    prematurely, I would be hungry for lunch for the rest of the week. I quickly learned to
    budget, and this skill has helped me throughout my adult life.  So, I taught my kids to be
    disciplined with money by initially taking them with me to the stores and discussing
    prices and how to look for discounts and budgeting their money. To this day, they are
    both frugal and at 25, my youngest bought his first home.
    In order for them to be able to make responsible life decisions, it was essential that they
    had critical thinking skills. I used every opportunity that I could to instill this. As soon as
    they were able to make decisions, I would allow them to pick their own clothes. I would
    teach them directions and ask them to show me how to get home from a subway map.
    We lived in Brooklyn, NY at the time. I also taught them how to play chess. This taught
    them how to make strategic decisions in life. I definitely see the benefit of these skills in
    their adult life. Their life decisions are well thought out before implementing.
    It was important for me to instill a disciplined work ethic in them. I never gave them
    anything extra. I convinced them that they had to earn what they wanted by doing extra
    chores or by creating hobbies that provided a source of income. My youngest started
    making spinners in elementary school and was selling them for a quarter. He'd save up
    his money to buy candy or toys because that’s what he wanted. To see the pride in his
    eyes when he earned his money and bought his favorite trinkets was an indication to me
    that the lesson was learned. I would repeat to them "The world doesn't owe you
    anything" like it was told to me. So, I've never expected anyone to come to my rescue. Everything I have ever had, I worked hard for and I wanted them to have the same
    attitude in life.
    It was also important for me to teach them how to properly love and respect women.
    First, by not letting them witness anyone disrespecting their own mother and by literally
    giving them advice about how to approach and interact with females. I'll never forget
    when my youngest wanted to ask a girl in his class to the school's Valentine's Day dance.
    I took him to the store and bought him some candy and a small teddy bear. When he
    went to school the next day and followed my instructions, he literally ran back home
    excited and told me she said "yes." The excitement in his eyes were as priceless as they
    are today when I see him in love with his wife. The happiness in her eyes shows me that
    he learned how to love a woman well.
    Having chores around the house was a double lesson. This instilled a solid work ethic
    and sense of community because we all had to maintain the space that we equally
    shared. This also taught them how to maintain their own living quarters as adults. My
    oldest son was shocked when he went to college and some of his fellow classmates didn't
    know how to properly do their laundry. So, the years of separating clothes and knowing
    the correct temperature to wash them was an appreciated skill when his mother was no
    longer around.
    If I could do it all over again, I would have given more hugs and kisses. We would have
    had more conversations about their emotions and what they were going through. I
    couldn't give them something that I didn't have. My family wasn't really big on hugs
    either. It was only after going to therapy myself that I understood the importance of
    mental and emotional health in maintaining a happy adulthood. Hopefully, I can instill
    this in my grandchildren when they arrive one day.


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